Waw Wa Waw

Debbie Downer is rearing her ugly head. 

The past few days it feels like all I've heard about, thought about and talked about is death, life insurance and POA. Can we say depressing? I hate talking about stuff like this. I hate to even think about it. I would much rather always have the person around than the money. What good's the money if you don't have the people/person you care about with you. 

I refuse to think about it. When I get told where policies and forms are to find, I can feel my eyes glaze over and my head nodding. Granted, I change the subject as fast as possible. I just can't even think about it. HATE it.

Get Down Tonight

Am I the only one who seems to get a little sad and feels the loneliness more at night? All I want is a hug right now.

• I want someone to fork spoon with at night. 
  
• I want a guys big, muscular arm wrapped around me at night as I sleep. 
  
• I want to feel completely secure when I fall into the realm of sleep. 
  
• I want to walk down the street, holding the hand of the person I love.
  
• I want to say "Two Please" when I walk up to the movie theater ticket counter or ask for seating in a restaurant. 
  
• I wanna cuddle on the couch while watching tv or movies. 
  
• I want to make him breakfast and watch him enjoy something I made.
  
• I want people to stop looking at me like I'm a disease cause I'm without a plus 1.
  
• I want to get cute surprise text messages from him. 
  
• I want to be able to make concrete plans instead of "tentative". 
  

Friends are busy with their families doing summer family things. The cheese stands alone.........

SO it's going to be THAT kind of a day

I thought today was going to be a great day since I don't have to be at work till 1:00pm. Wrong

-I wanted to sleep in. My eyes popped open at 7am.

-I got in the shower and washed my hair. The power went out as I was mid blow dry session.

-I'm going to the movies tonight & since the movie starts a 9:50 & I work till 9:30 I wanted to get my tickets this morning. I drive to the theater. The box office was CLOSED.

-I wanted to eat a hot breakfast because I haven't for the past 5 mornings. No power...no electric range. 

Seriously, I was Lt. Dan this morning from the shrimp boat scene in Forrest Gump. The scene where the giant storm comes and Lt. Dan is swinging from the top of the boat screaming at the heavens. 

Pray that the rest of my day gets better and that the movie is awesome.