Anyways, some of you have already been privy to this information. If you're one of those then I'm sorry, bare with me while I tell everyone else my dilemma.
If you haven't noticed my little countdown clock on the right side, I'm scheduled to be going out of town this Saturday. I've been looking forward to this for awhile. Early last week things changed. Situations changed and I was left without answers, confused and didn't know if I would be making the trip. Days went by and I had no idea if I was still going or not. I got word on Sunday that made me feel nauseous. Yet, I was still being asked to make this trip. Honestly, I want to take the trip for reasons I can't go into detail over yet.
I'd like to state that No one knows the future. Definitely not me. If you happen to know, get ahold of me because we need to talk.
Now in the course of this time frame I had made alternate plans. Because when you think you're not going on the trip you had planned, you plan something else. I have the days off work, why not? So I did just that. My BFF Erin lives in Cincinnati and was welcoming me with open arms to come stay with her this weekend. Then I got word from someone else that they would also be in the 'Nati (Cincinnati for all you non familiars of the great city) and that makes me really excited.
This is where the dilemma comes in. I can't be in two places at one time. I genuinely don't know where to go. Each place has it's pro's & con's... If I go to Texas I risk my heavy heart getting completely ripped out. I also risk not even being picked up at the airport and stuck in Austin for 5 days. I risk falling into a klassy moment where I smack skeezy girls in the face. However, I could gain a lot from going. I would have no regrets and the situation could do a 180.
If I go to Cinci though I'll get to see my BFF and my the person that would be really great to see. If I don't go, I have no idea when I'll get the time to go see Erin and there's an even likelier chance that I'd get to see the other person seeing as how they are only in town for those same days. Plus, will I regret not being in Texas the whole time I'm in Cinci. Would I also wonder what might have happened?
I just don't know what to do. I'm completely torn and honestly am lost on the choice. You never know though, at this point I may get a call any minute saying, "Hey don't come" I guess I'm playing it by ear but I only have 2 days to figure it out. Any advice?