Friday, May 10, 2013

California Dreaming

It happened again. I had a moment where I thought, "Oh my God, I'm in California."

I've been having a lot of these moments lately and I don't know why. This one hit me when I was driving home from work. The sky was about seven shades of pink and purple and it just looked amazing. That's when it hit me....I live in California. I'm on the west coast and I bought a home here. When it hits me it's like someone threw a brick at me. I can't believe it. I can't believe it all finally happened, the way it happened and what's unfolded since then. 


If I've learned anything in the last few months it's that you can't plan everything. You just have to let go and learn to do only what you can. Some things will be simple while other things will feel like you're climbing up a mountain. There will be days that are hard and then there will be days that you never want to end. 

I've had a lot of hard days. I moved here only knowing one person in this entire city. I had to take care of an entire house myself. I had to do things I had never done before. I had to learn how to use power tools and mow my enormous lawn. I was the only person to take out the trash and separate the recycling. I learned to cook more than just breakfast foods and pasta. I started to hone my baking skills. 

The hard days are starting to get fewer and farther between. Do I miss my mom and friends? Of course. Some nights when I'm home alone, I could cry if I think about it too much but then I decide that I moved out here for a reason. I wanted a better life for myself. I've started to make some friends and I've started getting invited to a few things. It feels good. I've started to put myself out there and I've learned when you do that, that's when you finally started to make friends and see things in a new light. 

4 comments:

Courtney B said...

I am SO happy for you that life is getting easier out there! You are so brave for taking on this new adventure!
I can only imagine how amazing it would be to live in California!

Sam M said...

I'm so glad that things are getting better. And I think it's amazing that you were brave and moved out there because you knew what you wanted. I'm afraid to ask this...but did you and josh break up?

Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

You only have one life and I think that moving to Cali was a brave, bold move! I wish I had the guts to do something like that!

Deidre said...

Moving far away from family is always going to be hard, even after you've lived there for 10 years, but it's also such an amazing feeling knowing that you can do it, you can do it on your own.